To Do and Die

It's been a month since I blogged and I realize now it's been exactly one month since I started the Insanity program. I'm so beat after these workouts that I can't even think about writing about it. I don't want to do anything but drink a protein shake and hop in the shower to get back to neutral. It's brutal. BUT...an hour later I feel amazing and when I don't workout, I feel like crap. There's only one problem; I hate Shaun T.

It's not personal. I've never even met him. It's just that his Insanity workouts are consistently more difficult than anything I've ever physically done in my life. Ever. It's the kind of non-stop cardiovascular workout that forces you to stop periodically, just so you can catch your breath and not die. Sweat seeps onto my skin from every pore. EVERY PORE! The back of my neck, my forehead, my upper lip, my arms, my legs! MY LEGS! When was the last time you ran your finger across your shin and it was covered in sweat? That has happened to me during every single workout in the Insanity program, and that's just the warmup.

I do miss Tony Horton. When I did P90X, I really felt like I was working my entire body each week. Also, it was harder for my brain to get bored because every day was a different workout. I've definitely skipped some Insanity workouts simply because I couldn't bare to do another day of cardio. I miss fun workouts like Kenpo, or the grounded, balanced feeling I get after doing Yoga. Six days a week of cardio? Ugh. What I will say for Insanity is it works, and fast. I sat down yesterday to figure out exactly how many workouts I skipped during the first month of Insanity, and which workouts I actually completed. It turns out I did just over half of the workouts and I still lost about 5 lbs. Imagine the shape I'd be in if I'd done all the workouts?

So my new goal is to complete all of the workouts in the second half. No excuses, except injury, of course. If I need a minute to get some water or catch my breath, I'll pause, but no skipping. The lesson I'm learning is that these workouts are too hard to give up or do the program half-assed. I'm wasting my time if I don't give it all I've got. Just one more month! 24 more workouts and then, if I still hate Shaun T., I'll never do Insanity again. Though I have a feeling that if I commit to working harder each time, I'm gonna end up loving my body...and then I'll love Shaun T.